My Sophie Bear

" Dogs Are Miracles With Paws"

This is my Sophie Bear, she is the love of my life & I couldn't imagine loving anyone or anything the way I love her! It's funny how dogs know your emotions & feelings before you even know them yourself. When I am sick & not feeling well Sophie will lay her head on my stomach & just comfort me, when I am excited and nervous she is excited with me. She has so much love to give & I love her for that. She only can live until about 8 years in human years which pains me but I know she is here to teach me a lesson about something, what it exactly is I just don't know yet but I know I love her!

Probably the biggest reason the dog has become man’s best friend is because we know that when it comes to love, a dog can always outdo us. The highest form of love, agape love, which is completely unconditional, is something that people often have to work at or grow into. Agape love seems to come naturally between parent and child, but it’s more difficult between husband and wife, and harder still between friends. To love someone regardless of what wrongs they have done you is very difficult for humans. A dog, however, is born with an endless capacity for agape love, and doesn’t even have to work at it. You can be a complete grouch, ignore your dog, and refuse him your love. When you decide you’re ready to be sociable again, your dog doesn’t pay you back by ignoring you too. He’s just happy you’re there. More amazing still, is that the love that dogs and owners feel for each other lasts a lifetime. This is the ideal love humans strive for, but often fail at.

This is why we need dogs. They do something for us that rarely a human companion can do. No matter how much you mess up your life, or how much wrong you do, no matter how many mistakes you make or how often you make them, regardless of your looks, income or social standing, your dog never judges you. He always thinks you are wonderful and loves you with all his heart.

The Life of a Puppy
This morning, I woke up & kissed my dad's head.I peed on the carpet, then went back to bed."The life of a puppy, oh my, this is great."Then I thought about breakfast," I hope it's not late."
Mom took me outside, we walked for a while.This never fails to make Mama smile.I sniffed of everything, that we did pass,I ate something weird - it gave me gas.
I'm sure God loves me, I know that is true.He gave me so many great things to chew.Rugs, plants or rocks, I really don't care.What I truly like best, is Dad's underwear.
That obedience book, was sort of yummy.Though it didn't sit well on my poor puppy tummy.I threw up a bit, but that was all right,When Mom found it later, I was well out of sight.
I made streamers of T. P., while running at full speed.Mom is pretty quick -- but I was still in the lead.I flew under the bed, and Mom flew past,She stopped-shook her head, and breathed,"You're too fast."
Mama later phoned Daddy, and said, "It was frightening!"That afternoon, she was sure I'd pooped lightning.She'd sat at the computer, while I chewed the cord,She thought I was mad, but I was just bored.
When Mama had enough, couldn't take anymore,That's when my tushy got shoved out the door.I love it inside, but outside is best.Lay in the cool grass, and had a good rest.
That didn't last long, there was too much to do--Can't quite remember where I hid Daddy's shoe.I found an old bone, and scratched at a flea,I watched the dumb squirrels as they jumped in a tree.
I barked at the kids, when they got off the bus.I can't figure out why this makes Mama fuss.I barked at the neighbor, I barked at the wind.I barked and barked, till Mom yelled, "COME IN."
The sun dipped in the west-soon Daddy would come!I sure love my daddy: we always have fun.I barked at my daddy, then turned on my charms,I woo-wooed, "Hello," then jumped in his arms.
Sitting under the table -- it's sooo hard to wait.Daddy slipped me a goodie right off his plate.I raced through the house, and scattered my toys,Ricocheted off the furniture, and made lots of noise.
Mom found her purse - the one I abused.Daddy let loose a chuckle. Mom asked "Amused??"I cowered down low, I must be in trouble.Dad said, "Wasn't MY boy, it must be his double!"
Mom turned off the TV, and said,"Time for bed."Dad said "Let's go boy," and patted my head.I got in my spot, between Mom and Dad,I thought 'bout my day and what fun I had.
Mama kicked out my bone from the covers below,Then let loose a sigh -- a sigh deep and low.She gave me a kiss, and snuggled me tight,And whispered so softly, 'My darling goodnight'.

My Beautiful Trisha Lynn

Tomorrow will be two months since I lost my best friend-There is still not a moment I don't tear up & bawl thinking about her, there is pain & sadness that fills my heart & I ache knowing that you wont ever get to experience life-but then again who knows what you could be experiencing right now.

Every time I think about you I find myself surrounded by this beautiful yellow butterfly-yellow always looked fabulous on you & you knew it. She was the most real person I have ever met & it amazes me how she came into my life not long ago and how fast she was taken from my life. I feel so selfish always thinking about how this affects me, me, me but I am entitled to feel that way right? I now have to fill her spot as my best bridesmaid-I'm not ready to give that to anyone else (that's what we called it because Ash is my Maid Of Honor & then Trisha would be next to her)-we couldn't wait to stand next to each other when we got married. But she will have a front row seat and I know she'll be there. I never imagined in my wildest dreams that I would never see her again, you never think that way until it happens-and in the end it is too late. I don't know how long I will grieve for, I don't know how long I will try and mask the pain each day but I do know that I don't want to ever forget you & I will never. It's hard to do normal things shower, drive, work when she pops into my head & just the thought of her laying in the ground makes me shiver...It's nice to know that when you clean, go through old boxes or even my space comments you find little messages from her, seeing her handwriting on birthday cards or even recipes makes me smile because I know she led me to find these-

Her biggest fear was death-this was mine too, now my biggest fear is not living

Trisha had moved to El Dorado Hills from Elk Grove and we worked at Mervyn's together-we instantly became friends, she was always so shy & nice-I taught her to be mean ;)

We had college classes together, loved to go out to eat and loved to go to Elk Grove. We'd clock each other in @ work if one was running late, we'd take 2 hour lunches, we would shop & get ice cream and have slumber parties. I kind of hate myself for moving so far away from her, my sister, my friends-but she was the only one to support me during my move. She was so full of life and had so many clothes! She amazes me and will always amaze me-I know you loved Adam but we all had a gut feeling about him-we know he loved you but he took your life Trisha & out of carelessness and not thinking...I'll forgive but never forget

I still haven't washed your clothes & I am glad because they still smell like you

I love you Trisha Lynn

...and now you lay under an old oak tree

You Were Always There

Whenever I needed someone to talk toYou were always there.

My eyes filled with tears, my heart filled with pain, andYou were always there.

There was no time when I had doubt to come to you becauseYou were always there.

I could see in your eyes you wanted to help, and that you really cared.Whenever I was down and blueYou were always there.

No matter my problems, are what was wrongYou were always there.

Whenever I felt like nothing mattersYou were always there.

Now your gone, and I don't know what to doI close my eyes and think of you, and howYou were always there.

It's hard to look at the pictures, and get memories of you

Can you hear me nowAt night I pray, and I speak to youI guess you were right when you told me no matter how far you were You would always be there.

I know one day I'll see you again, but till then I have to say goodbyeEven though it hurts to hear your name, and speak of you One thing I will always say is You were always there.

My Smashley

Well I just got hooked into blogging by my darling Megan!

"I smile because your my sister...I laugh because there's nothing you can do about it!"

My sister is coming to town! It has been Two full years to this day since she has came to see me, the last time was in Seattle when all the girls came to visit. I know it wont be the same without all of them here but I will always remember the memories & my Trisha Lynn....

She is the life of the party! We have been through a lot lately and she is one of the strongest people I know-someone I can always turn to and count on-She always says the best things & can tell me the honest truth, I know I've got you til the end...

My Special Sister

I served the cake, you poured the tea, we built a house under the tree. In grown up clothes we played all parts, secrets told, we crossed our hearts. Through all the years, the smiles and tears, first true loves and football cheers. I've never found a friend so true, I'll love you Sis my whole life through.

I can't wait to see you Smash!